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I just generated a chart for my journal. Name: _lemniscate Created November 10 2003 4:30 PM Time Zone is AEDT Melbourne, AUSTL Rising Sign is in 05 Degrees Aries You are a free spirit and you must be first at everything you do. Very energetic, self-assertive and active, things must be done your way. Even though you may feel calm and serene on the inside, you certainly do not act that way. You want to do everything full-tilt, 100 miles per hour! A great competitor, but a poor cooperator -- you must learn how to lose more gracefully. Very self-confident, ambitious and passionate, you radiate positive energy. You are blunt and direct, but at times unfeeling and tactless, especially if anyone offers you any resistance. You fight for your beliefs, but your tendency to act first and think later often causes you much grief. Sun is in 17 Degrees Scorpio. Intense and complex by nature, you have extremely strong emotional reactions to most situations. Feelings are often very difficult for you to verbalize. Therefore you have a tendency to be very quiet - - to brood and think a lot. You seldom get overtly angry, but, when you do, you are furious and unforgiving. When you make an emotional commitment, it is total -- you are not attracted to superficial or casual relationships. If you are challenged, you take it as a personal affront and tend to lash out and fight back in a vengeful manner. You love mysteries and the supernatural. A good detective, you love getting to the roots of problems and you enjoy finding out what makes other people tick. You are known to be very willful, very powerful and quite tenacious! Moon is in 00 Degrees Gemini. Restless in the extreme, you are easily bored because of your short attention span. Your emotions change rapidly and you love to talk about your feelings. Generally, you have good judgment -- your intellect controls your emotions and you do not overreact emotionally to things. A good jack-of-all-trades, you have many- sided interests and enjoy reasoning things through. With your mental agility and need for physical mobility, you are attracted to traveling and learning about other peoples and cultures. You have vivid powers of emotional self-expression - - you can be a nonstop talker. You love to share your ideas with anyone who will listen. Mercury is in 26 Degrees Scorpio. You are a born investigator. You are fascinated by secrets and mysteries and unanswered questions of any kind. When you become upset or angry, your emotional reactions are overpowering -- reason and logic disappear in an uncontrollable passionate outburst. You tend to keep your thoughts secret and bottled up and this makes others regard you with suspicion. It is not that you are trying purposely to be evasive, it is just that you would rather not deal with the explosions and hassles that often occur when you reveal your true feelings and opinions. Your sense of humor tends toward sarcasm and irony. Venus is in 09 Degrees Sagittarius. You are very aware of the need to maintain a high sense of morality in a relationship. Your loyalty and interest will remain constant in any relationship (either friendly, personal or business) that is based on fairness, honesty and justice. But you will become greatly hurt and disappointed if the other person takes any but the high road with you. Also, you cannot tolerate anyone being overly emotionally possessive of you. You are known for your friendly, outspoken manner. Mars is in 11 Degrees Pisces. Very sensitive and vulnerable, it is difficult for you to assert yourself. At times, you feel quite tired and you will require a lot of sleep in order to maintain your health and your strength. You are at your best when you act without your ego being important. You can be very unselfish and considerate of the needs of others. You get the most satisfaction by giving to others when you expect nothing in return. Beware of a tendency to want always to work behind the scenes or to become overly deceptive by doing things behind others' backs. Jupiter is in 14 Degrees Virgo. You feel most expansive and at ease with yourself when you are doing something that you consider to be practical or useful. You enjoy being dutiful and carrying out responsibilities. You gladly take on the little tasks that others seem to want to avoid. At times, you carry things to extremes and feel guilty anytime you do something that you consider to be self-indulgent. While it is appropriate for you to demand little for yourself in life, try to loosen up once in a while -- go out on a fling and enjoy yourself! Saturn is in 13 Degrees Cancer. The most important issue for you is emotional security. You have a deep and gnawing fear that those on whom you depend for emotional support will prove to be unreliable in the long run. When you are unloved and insecure, you distrust others and tend to feel isolated and lonely. Very cool, detached and objective, you can be counted on -- in situations that are inherently stressful or full of tension -- not to lose your self- control. That is a great and welcome gift at such times. Uranus is in 28 Degrees Aquarius. You, and most of your peer group as well, are reformers at heart. You want to make positive changes that will benefit society as a whole. You are willing to devote your time and energy to see that they come about, especially if the proper group support and combined purpose of will can be found. Be careful that your devotion to group goals does not produce too much friction or neglect in your own interpersonal one-on-one relationships. Neptune is in 10 Degrees Aquarius. You, and your entire generation, will idealize and even venerate the ability to remain detached as well as the ability to objectively analyze any given situation. There will be a concerted effort on your part to cure the ills of society as a whole. But be very careful to continue to maintain and protect the rights of individuals in the midst of these potentially far-reaching changes. Pluto is in 18 Degrees Sagittarius. For your entire generation, society's cherished beliefs and totems will be radically changed. Many traditional concepts will be totally altered, if not completely destroyed. The rights of individuals to pursue their own course in life will be reasserted. N. Node is in 20 Degrees Taurus. It's not in your nature to seek out many casual acquaintances in your daily round of activities. You feel much more comfortable with a small, close-knit group of people -- those with whom you can relax and work toward known and clearly defined goals. Your loyalty to a person or group, once given, is forever -- you'll expend all of your quite considerable energy in seeing that the group stays together and prospers. You choose your partners and relationships so carefully that you're bound to gain certain advantages from them, including those of a material nature. Be careful though not to let mere self-service be your motivation in establishing your connections -- make sure that there's an even give-and-take!

Brilliant. I h...

Brilliant. I have a kinesiology/thought field therapy appointment for-Tuesday May 10th, at 4:30pm.I will generate a chart.

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Phil you barstard!!!!!!#$@$%I'LL FIGHT YOU TO THE DEATH FOR MY MONEY!!!!

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The Duality

I knew this all along!I bolded the traits I feel I posess, and really apply to my life right now. Sun Opposition PlutoYour strong will and stubbornness may get you into conflicts with others, because you are never willing to let anyone else have their way. You should admit to yourself that you enjoy a good battle, because it enables you to experience your own strength, assuming, of course, that you know you can win. The trouble is that even if you get tired of fighting, you cannot turn off the conflicts. You will have to learn to get along with others and save your energy for times when it is really important to get your own way. You will be strongly affected by the people whom you encounter. In order to see yourself clearly, you need others as a mirror. Sometimes you will learn through conflicts and sometimes through working with people, but the better you understand how others work, the better you will understand yourself. This means that unless you work especially hard to get along with people, your life will not develop as fast as it should. You should work with others to bring about changes in your own life and in the lives of those around you. You are not the kind of person who can live with a set pattern for the rest of your life. Without change and growth, you will begin to feel so restless that you will tear things down just for the sake of change. You will break up old relationships and form new ones, pull up stakes in one place and go somewhere else. This need for change is part of what you are, and you should accept this, because then you will learn to prefer it. Change has certainly brought me some wonderful new experiences... especially the change I have been through in the last 6 months. Pluto in the 6th... what a beautiful aspect. I used to only manifest it negatively, and see it as a curse but now that I am really intouch with what that particular astrological configuration means to me, I feel like I've made some amazing breakthroughs. I feel like my higher self is so 'proud of my ego' and its efforts to become more aligned with my higher self. This relationship will continue to blossom throughout the rest of my life. Pluto Trine Midheaven    This aspect indicates that you will always want to use your resources and talents to the best of your ability in order to get ahead in life. Even while you are young, long before most people are considering a career, you will begin to learn the best ways of using your talents to get where you want to go. However, some problems may arise in the course of your development that you should be aware of. For example, although later you will be concerned with resources, now you may simply be interested in owning things, which may result in your having a lot of useless clutter. Also be careful not to be so possessive of what you own that you are unwilling to share it with others at all. On another level, this aspect can signify that you get very involved in learning various skills. This can be very useful if you concentrate on useful skills and if you do not get so wrapped in them that you lose track of relationships with other people. Do not become too self-involved. Any situation in which you feel compelled to act by some inner compulsion can be bad for you because you are not aware of yourself and what you are doing at the time. As a result, your activities might have totally unexpected consequences. Make sure you understand your reasons for doing whatever you do. Nevertheless you have a strong drive to get ahead and to succeed, which should be very advantageous in competition with others. Your objectives in life may change several times and as an adult you may change careers, but your work and your outside interests should be enormously satisfying to you. My 2005 Solar Return begins next Friday, with Aries on the Eastern Horizon. I can feel the changes culminating on a metaphysical level, establishing new scenarios in my life. I feel like I'm about to go through another whole heap of changes, just like the ones I went through in October/November/December last year. It's really exhilirating, I'm manifesting totally different experiences now. It's a credit to the inner work I do, this Spiritual Trek will continue for the rest of my life. It'll be interesting to see the kind of person I become 10 years down the track- probably completely different to what I am now! Not by sitting back and letting Fate/unconscious agendas take control of me, but by consciously directing my will and co creating my reality. As Jung said, you must make the unconscious conscious- or it will direct your life, and you will call it fate.Once you reach a certain soul level (I believe myself to be a level 5/Advanced- psychically that is) you elect to return with a number of pressing past life resonances that you're literally compelled- inwardly, to unravel and transcend. Once you earn something spiritually, you own it for all of Eternity. No one can take it away from you. And that's the beauty of evolution. A thousand years is but an instant... there's nothing new, nothing different- same problems, over and over. The same clowns. The same music. There's nothing here for me now, nothing at all. Now I remember, this happened to me before. This is why I left. You have begun to find your answers. Although it will seem difficult, the rewards will be great. Excercise your human mind as fully as possible, knowing it's only an excercise. I remember where I came from, and how I became a human- and now my final departure schedule. This way out. Escaping velocity. Not just eternity, but Infinity.Our critique began as all critiques begin. With Doubt. Doubt became our narrative, ours was a quest for a new story, our own. And we grasped towards this new history driven by the suspicion that ordinary language couldn't tell it. Our past appeared frozen in the distance and every gesture and accent signified the negation of the old world and the reach for a new one. The way we lived created a new situation, one of exhuberance and friendship, that of a subversive micro-society, in the heart of a society which ignored it. Art was not the goal but the occasion and the method for locating our specific rythum and buried possibilities of our time. And discovering that true communication was what it was about, or at least the quest for such a communication, the adventure of finding it and losing it, we the unapppeased, the unaccepting, continued looking, filling in the silences with our own wishes, fears and fantasies. Driven forward by the fact taht no matter how empty the world seemed, how degraded and used up, we knew that anything was still possible, and given the right circumstances, a new world was just as likely as an old one. ----TO BEGIN AGAIN FROM THE BEGINNING----For I do not await the future anticipating salvation, absolution, not even enlightenment through process. I subscribe to the premise that flawed perfection is sufficient and complete in every single ineffable momentA single ego is an absurdly narrow vantage from which to view this experience. And where most consider their individual relationship to the universe, I contemplate relationships of my various Selves to one another.-The End.

A warning sig...

A warning sign, I missed the good part then I realized, I started looking and the bubble burst, I started looking for excuses. Come on in, I've got to tell you what a state I'm in, I've got to tell you in my loudest tones, That I started looking for a warning sign. When the truth is, I miss you, Yeah the truth is, That I miss you so. A warning sign, You came back to haunt me and I realized, That you were an island and I passed you by, You were an island to discover. Come on in, I've got to tell you what a state I'm in, I've got to tell you in my loudest tones, That I started looking for a warning sign. When the truth is, I miss you, Yeah the truth is, That I miss you so, And I'm tired, I should not have let you go, No. (piano solo) So I crawled back into your open arms, Yes I crawled back into your open arms, And I crawled back into your open arms, Yes I crawled back into your open arms.

BACK, MY REN...

BACK, MY RENAME TOKEN ARRIVED!!!COMMENT TO BE ADDED---> Or just add me and I'll add you back!