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Phil you barstard!!!!!!#$@$%I'LL FIGHT YOU TO THE DEATH FOR MY MONEY!!!!

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BWBAHAHAHAHAHAHAhttp://www.facade.com/tarot/personal/?UID=415327&Date=4%2F27%2F2005&Name=will+i+get+my+f%23ing+money+or+WHAT%3F&Query=&Deck=cat_people&Reading=celtic_crossI'm an idiot.

The Duality

I knew this all along!I bolded the traits I feel I posess, and really apply to my life right now. Sun Opposition PlutoYour strong will and stubbornness may get you into conflicts with others, because you are never willing to let anyone else have their way. You should admit to yourself that you enjoy a good battle, because it enables you to experience your own strength, assuming, of course, that you know you can win. The trouble is that even if you get tired of fighting, you cannot turn off the conflicts. You will have to learn to get along with others and save your energy for times when it is really important to get your own way. You will be strongly affected by the people whom you encounter. In order to see yourself clearly, you need others as a mirror. Sometimes you will learn through conflicts and sometimes through working with people, but the better you understand how others work, the better you will understand yourself. This means that unless you work especially hard to get along with people, your life will not develop as fast as it should. You should work with others to bring about changes in your own life and in the lives of those around you. You are not the kind of person who can live with a set pattern for the rest of your life. Without change and growth, you will begin to feel so restless that you will tear things down just for the sake of change. You will break up old relationships and form new ones, pull up stakes in one place and go somewhere else. This need for change is part of what you are, and you should accept this, because then you will learn to prefer it. Change has certainly brought me some wonderful new experiences... especially the change I have been through in the last 6 months. Pluto in the 6th... what a beautiful aspect. I used to only manifest it negatively, and see it as a curse but now that I am really intouch with what that particular astrological configuration means to me, I feel like I've made some amazing breakthroughs. I feel like my higher self is so 'proud of my ego' and its efforts to become more aligned with my higher self. This relationship will continue to blossom throughout the rest of my life. Pluto Trine Midheaven    This aspect indicates that you will always want to use your resources and talents to the best of your ability in order to get ahead in life. Even while you are young, long before most people are considering a career, you will begin to learn the best ways of using your talents to get where you want to go. However, some problems may arise in the course of your development that you should be aware of. For example, although later you will be concerned with resources, now you may simply be interested in owning things, which may result in your having a lot of useless clutter. Also be careful not to be so possessive of what you own that you are unwilling to share it with others at all. On another level, this aspect can signify that you get very involved in learning various skills. This can be very useful if you concentrate on useful skills and if you do not get so wrapped in them that you lose track of relationships with other people. Do not become too self-involved. Any situation in which you feel compelled to act by some inner compulsion can be bad for you because you are not aware of yourself and what you are doing at the time. As a result, your activities might have totally unexpected consequences. Make sure you understand your reasons for doing whatever you do. Nevertheless you have a strong drive to get ahead and to succeed, which should be very advantageous in competition with others. Your objectives in life may change several times and as an adult you may change careers, but your work and your outside interests should be enormously satisfying to you. My 2005 Solar Return begins next Friday, with Aries on the Eastern Horizon. I can feel the changes culminating on a metaphysical level, establishing new scenarios in my life. I feel like I'm about to go through another whole heap of changes, just like the ones I went through in October/November/December last year. It's really exhilirating, I'm manifesting totally different experiences now. It's a credit to the inner work I do, this Spiritual Trek will continue for the rest of my life. It'll be interesting to see the kind of person I become 10 years down the track- probably completely different to what I am now! Not by sitting back and letting Fate/unconscious agendas take control of me, but by consciously directing my will and co creating my reality. As Jung said, you must make the unconscious conscious- or it will direct your life, and you will call it fate.Once you reach a certain soul level (I believe myself to be a level 5/Advanced- psychically that is) you elect to return with a number of pressing past life resonances that you're literally compelled- inwardly, to unravel and transcend. Once you earn something spiritually, you own it for all of Eternity. No one can take it away from you. And that's the beauty of evolution. A thousand years is but an instant... there's nothing new, nothing different- same problems, over and over. The same clowns. The same music. There's nothing here for me now, nothing at all. Now I remember, this happened to me before. This is why I left. You have begun to find your answers. Although it will seem difficult, the rewards will be great. Excercise your human mind as fully as possible, knowing it's only an excercise. I remember where I came from, and how I became a human- and now my final departure schedule. This way out. Escaping velocity. Not just eternity, but Infinity.Our critique began as all critiques begin. With Doubt. Doubt became our narrative, ours was a quest for a new story, our own. And we grasped towards this new history driven by the suspicion that ordinary language couldn't tell it. Our past appeared frozen in the distance and every gesture and accent signified the negation of the old world and the reach for a new one. The way we lived created a new situation, one of exhuberance and friendship, that of a subversive micro-society, in the heart of a society which ignored it. Art was not the goal but the occasion and the method for locating our specific rythum and buried possibilities of our time. And discovering that true communication was what it was about, or at least the quest for such a communication, the adventure of finding it and losing it, we the unapppeased, the unaccepting, continued looking, filling in the silences with our own wishes, fears and fantasies. Driven forward by the fact taht no matter how empty the world seemed, how degraded and used up, we knew that anything was still possible, and given the right circumstances, a new world was just as likely as an old one. ----TO BEGIN AGAIN FROM THE BEGINNING----For I do not await the future anticipating salvation, absolution, not even enlightenment through process. I subscribe to the premise that flawed perfection is sufficient and complete in every single ineffable momentA single ego is an absurdly narrow vantage from which to view this experience. And where most consider their individual relationship to the universe, I contemplate relationships of my various Selves to one another.-The End.

A warning sig...

A warning sign, I missed the good part then I realized, I started looking and the bubble burst, I started looking for excuses. Come on in, I've got to tell you what a state I'm in, I've got to tell you in my loudest tones, That I started looking for a warning sign. When the truth is, I miss you, Yeah the truth is, That I miss you so. A warning sign, You came back to haunt me and I realized, That you were an island and I passed you by, You were an island to discover. Come on in, I've got to tell you what a state I'm in, I've got to tell you in my loudest tones, That I started looking for a warning sign. When the truth is, I miss you, Yeah the truth is, That I miss you so, And I'm tired, I should not have let you go, No. (piano solo) So I crawled back into your open arms, Yes I crawled back into your open arms, And I crawled back into your open arms, Yes I crawled back into your open arms.

BACK, MY REN...

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