semitrance

Side AThis is a reading for Krista in October of 2004.I'm getting a few little feelings, as far as guides go... I'm getting the feeling there are some guides there kind of standing there going- well, go on- they're kind of waiting for you to take your next step... that you're already on the way to taking. In other words, they're not so much... they don't seem to be in there pushing or being active at the moment- they're still there- they never go away- but they're just sort of ... *clears throat* allowing you to make your decisions and make your steps- so they're saying to be a bit more pro active, even make some mistakes but just continue with making choices- and being here. They're watching you. Do your stuff in this world. They're pulling back- going yeah yeah just go on- they can't interfere until you do what you've got to do. They're not going to make anything happen or push anything, really. You've got to get on with it- they're going, 'yeah yeah- get on with it! ' So take the next step, you're allowed- we're watching you- they just want to see you, as I always say with you in your readings- making peace with being Here. You're just still in that process. You need to be able to handle being here and being comfortable with it. They can't really - you actually have to be doing it for awhile. You feel like you're walking by yourself, and they're not with you- you just have to keep walking. They're still with you, but you have to be able to keep walking even if you don't know what they're doing. They can't take those steps for you. It doesn't mean they're not there. The other thing I'm getting- and this is really corny- I'm always aware when people are telling you 'you've got an American Indian guides' because it's one of those corny new age things- but when I'm looking around you trying to have a look at guides and stuff, I actually feel that there is that energy there, and I feel like there's a very specific reason for it- it's not that you've only got American Indians as your guides, you know- American Indian spirits or whatever, but, I get that there's some- you may have one or 2- but the very specific reason for you is to get intouch with nature. That's really important. And that could be going swimming, bushwalking, walking on the beach... making a garden, do something- it's the same thing, it always comes up- remember to Earth yourself. Um, so the guides that you do have- they're kind of going- you know, come on- get on with it- I feel that there's some energy there that is indiginous, but there's some earth energy there. Earth magik. Have you been reading any American Indian stuff? The reason that you've got that at the moment is because they're asking you to get intouch with Nature. Maybe that you have.. because guides do create all sorts of weird opportunities that you don't rationally understand how it happened- it may be that you have some opportunity to get outside, do some more nature stuff. Do go for it. Also water specifically- get into the water. That element that is your feelings- it'll teach you about how to flow through your feelings instead of putting them into boxes, and analyzing them. You've just got to feel them. I think getting into water will really help that. I have found in the last month or so there's been so much past life stuff coming through... so let's have a look. We've had a couple of eclipses... the eclipse full moon will really effect you. 26th. Feelings reading you have been drawing me to this... I get a feeling of a past life situation where you've been trapped... now I don't know if this is being trapped somewhere and dying- like you've been locked up or you passed away because you couldn't get out. What I got was you scratching... you trying to get out. I don't know if you're locked in a room, cupboard, being held hostage, buried alive- I don't know how serious it is, but I get that feeling around you it feels like anxiety- I know you have some anxiety issues because I've had it myself- I know how to read it. Anyway I just got it- wham. I think there's a past life thing about being trapped- and you know that feeling, that claustrophobic feeling- that's... and it's scratching- I've got to get out, I've got to get out, I'm not sure where you are... I'm not sure how many lifetimes ago it was- probably the last one I suppose- if it's coming up now- I also think you're trapped somewhere- I think you got locked up quite often, I feel like it's quite a small space, I don't know how literal it is- you're trapped. With you there's a reason. I do get a feeling of being trapped. I do think this is coming up now, because as you said, when you were younger you had a phobia of being locked up in rooms, you don't like lifts.... you know, there's a bit of anxiety there. It may have been. Because yours is coming up today... it's time for you to process it now... it's quite possible that this person is from that past lifetime. (on me waking up crying) it's nice to have some consciousness. It needs to be now processed where you can release it. You're stuck, and you're scratching... you can't get out... I'm only just realizing why I got that around you, because it's been rising up, and rising up... and now I've got it. It could have manifested literally as phobias, such as claustrophobia... or as this tendency to withdraw. So you don't like being locked away, you get claustrophobic- but it's become a safe space to withdraw and feel hidden. Maybe you spent alot of time locked away, and you hated it- but you also felt comfortable there. So in this lifetime, this is very deeply imprinted. So slowly you're processing and releasing this Karma, this patterning. About being a hermit and withdrawing. I always say just try and balance it with being here- being comfortable with interacting. This is one of your life tasks. I suspect if you can do some work on this past life stuff, it will all become alot easier. Becuase this conditioning that is so deep deep deep deep- has been coming more and more to the surface so you can process it. So you can release it- and once you release it, it's not driving you from the unconsicous anymore. So when you feel like, I just want to be alone, I want to be a hermit- it won't be such a pull. You'll feel like you have more freedom. I think alot of this conditioning is rising up to be released at the moment. This is the first time I've gotten a specific reason- it's a past life thing. Music in supermarkets.... I don't know exactly what happened- maybe there was music when you were trapped. I'm really making a big deal of this because whenever I tune into you I get this feeling of scratching... it's chhh chhh chhhcc... I say, well that's anxiety... but I've only just figured out what it's about because it's getting easier to read. It's really quite important because this is when you can start releasing it- I have some conditioning about retreating and being very hermetic- but you also hate it- you fight it. I feel like you're starting to release whatever imperative is causing that. I think it's a past life thing, and you're ready to let go of that. OK so oil- sandlewood, rose, rosemary... I'm being drawn to sandlewood. It's very earthy, soothing.. you might even wear some oil. I'm getting sandlewood- as this comes up, I'm getting this will be very soothing. If you possibly can- way of hooking up with certain people- organize to go off and do some horseriding- something really sporty- something outdoor and active. It's really good for you to get out there- get outdoors and not be inside. THis is part of this being trapped thing. Do something physical and active- making a commitment to being here in your body. Getting outside of yourself. Get some endorphins moving through your body- this thing about being tired all time time- too much channelling and ungrounded spiritual stuff. This is a leaning that you've got. Ground yourself and come out of yourself. The last thing you need right now is to get too much into books and ungrounded spiritual stuff, its taking you out of body. The past life stuff is coming up now so you can aknowledge and release it. Cos I feel that there's this massive anxiety in your body- and that's why you don't like being in your body- because it's anxious. And I know all about anxiety.. it's a physiological experience- so when you're in your body you feel nervous and anxious, so you get out of it by doing your channelling or whatever. Your path right now is to make peace with being in your body. Getting outdoors.. anything that's aerobic- gets the heart racing. It releases the anxiety. Alot of the anxiety that is living inside your body is what you're holding inside your body, it's from this past life thing. When you were trapped, it caused massive levels of anxiety and nervousness, panic- it flooded your body. Probably a death situation. You died with your body in that state of anxiety, so when you came back it was like 'oh no, here we go again.. back in body'. = anxiety. And you can realease that now because it's just not happening anymore- it's history. You're only holding anxiety in your body now because of habit, it's not necessity- so now it's about letting go of that and being committed to being in a body, in a positive way. You know what I mean, and enjoying that physicality- you're free. You're not trapped anymore. You're not locked in a room... you can do whatever you want. Your concscious mind knows that but your unconscious doesn't know that you're free- and I think that's where alot of the fears and anxieties and social stuff comes from. It may also have been in this past lifetime, if you were trapped alot- if you were very much hermatic, and you were always locked away, you didn't develop alot of social skills. So in this lifetime you're going 'I don't know how to be social!' but you do... nothing is stopping you now, do you know what I mean? You've got all this self knowledge, that you've developed for I don't know how many lifetimes- and that's something you can share. It's not a negative it's a positive. It's become a comfort zone but you don't like it and it's not working for you anymore. You've done too much introspective stuff. It does become a safety zone. There's a few levels here... lots of introspective stuff... you were very isolated, there might have been a death. A library? You said that very strongly. In your own little world... information, information... physically locked somewhere. A symbol of being locked away in a little world. A strong tendency to go back there.Because you're making such a dramatic shift in this lifetime- it's all coming up already- you're very young, you don't want to be going through this when you're 45, but it's a very intense time in your lifetime now. Because it's all coming up because you're going into your 20s and 30s... when you're on your own trip you don't always connect with your own age group. There's this stuff about socialising... you can get intouch with your skills. You assume subconsciously you don't have these skills but you do. Release it because it's all finished now. You bring the wisdom, reflective, etc. big step from that as a total safety zone to coming out of yourself. How to shift it... there will be alot of difference if you can work on that. I know that you probably think 'I'm not getting anywhere.. nothing's happening, it's not working'... I know you don't believe it- but it is happening. You're just making so much progress internally... I just want to say one thing about your family- with this last lifetime, your relationship with them was very strong. You've come into this lifetime with them- the energy around your mum, dad and at home is very reminiscient of this past lifetime- it's a feeling you've carried over, and once you release it you won't experience it so much with them. You're physically in an environment that is resonating with that energy. It's like that little box that you get trapped in. I feel you might decide to move. Could be the next several months... This is a move, very good for you.. energy change... once the energy of this house is really contributing to your condition.. processing past life stuff...